New Life in a New City... =/

It's been awhile since I used this blog.

Almost a year I guess. A lot has happened since I last blogged. I managed to come to the UK for whats probably the last few stages in my days as a full time student. The journey to this far away land has made me go through a whirlwind of emotions.

Life here in my opinion is shit compared to back at home. Tho it seems like an awesome idea of being "independent" from parents and such, but to be honest I would rather be back at home where I'm sure there is someone who will be by my side. Whether it be my family or my buddies from school. I know how people say that's life and such. I'm not saying it's different. It probably is the same thing that happens to everyone else once they go to a live in a foreign land all alone without someone you completely trust. I'm selfish for thinking about these things in such a negative way. Of wanting these people to be around me when I have a problem while I haven't really been there for them when they need a shoulder to cry on or even a friend to just accompany them. I realized that I've been taking granted of all of my friends and my family who have been around me. In a way this is a way of apologizing to all of you if I haven't been there for you guys. I can't guarantee that I will be there for you guys, but I will try.

I wanna hug you all. Especially one person whom I feel I've been taking her company for granted. Love you guys and I promise you that the next post will not be as negative or as annoyingly emo in a way. I guess I've been having these thoughts only to find no outlet in the recent months.

Take care to all and ciao~

I'm morphing into sumthing different..

I think im changing. In taste.. Not in maturity. Hahaha. Im still the idiotic and panat guy all my friends know. But my taste in music has totally changed. I also realised most bands i listen to nowdays are from the "fuelled by ramen" label company. Haha! Its so cool! Should I try the rest of the bands from that company? Damn addicted to The Academy Is, Paramore, FOB, Gym Class Heroes and etc.. Also The Spill Canvas and The Cat Empire caught my ear. They be GOOD listening. XDXD

Other than that, im hating school. Im hating Studies. Im hating stress and pressure. All im looking forward to is every Friday, except for this Friday. Im heading to Miri, which aint gna be fun. No football. Thats what i look forward to every week. Nyeh. I can survive a day without it. Still.. Im gonna miss not kicking a ball to get rid of stress. Work and assignments are piling up. Its getting annoying. Parents also are really expecting alot from me. I'm afraid of the end of my school year. Im afraid of taking the exam. I need 2 As. They want me to get a scholarship.. wait.. not want.. They NEED me to get it. Im afraid of dissapointing em.

Just like a prodigy who fails the first time, most support is lost when the prodigy makes the first mistake. So far in my life, its a relative accomplishment, and if i fail this one, im gonna end up dissapointing my parents. Im afraid of losing their support and losing their trust. Not only that, this whole course im taking isnt just normal free education.. Its being paid B$415 a month! thats alot of money. These days i finally really realise what Abg Aziz is talkin about. If i fail this exam, im going to end up wasting my parents money, while Abg Aziz education is free in MD. Courseworks due, and Homeworks are crazy.. I guess i shouldnt have picked up History.. Im pretty much screwed. Nyeh.

Anyways, thats all i gotta say today. have a nice rest of the year!!! Have fun people!!

Ello ello again.

I've been bred lately and I think that the next two weeks are gonna suck badly. Nyeh. One whole week of nothing but books and sleep. A dream holiday eh? Hahaha. Plus I think I need to exercise more. Thinking of jogging, but with my attitude n jogging.. All I can say is I dont think I'll do it.. >_< But lets try. One week of jogging/books/sleep. Hmmm.. Statrting to become more interesting. XD

Other than that. This morning me and a friend of mine were talking about drawing and stuff and thus the topic of me being inactive in deviantart came up. trying to juggle Studies and Drawing is kinda hard. But now i got some time on my hands to actually practice my art. LETS DO THAT!! haha. So yea. This week is gonna be jogging/books/sleep/drawing..

Other that. I think I'm gna open up. I've been planning on trying to ask this girl out. Heh. To me she is pretty and cool. I dunno why I kinda like her bt that doesnt really matter. Although I think nothing could possibly happen. But i guess if nothing could possibly happen then that means there is nothing to lose eh? Haha. Anyways, thats all i have time for.

ja-ne!!

Im halfway there!!

Oryt! Halfway to the end. XDXD

My Geo, malay and General Paper are done.. Less pressure. From both my parents!!! YES!!! nyeh. Still got 3 more exams in june. heh. Who ever came up with the one week break in between anyways?? Its so damn weird?? nyeh. Damn it. Even though my geo is done and over with. Its still bugging me. Couldnt sleep a wink last night worrying about my geo exam. SO DAMN TIRED RIGHT NOW!! Nyeh. It was that hard!!! I feel like i jst wrote bullshit on that damned exam paper. Nyeh. I myt have to resit any of those 3 papers. >_<

Other than that. Life is just normal. I think. hahaha. Well. Jst wanna say that Geo and General studies and Malay is done.. NEXT IS HISTORY!!! MUST GET CRACKING!!! gotta go study nw. CYA!!

Exams started.

Hello everyone.

Exams has already started and my brain is already trying to remember a year's worth of studying and knoledge. Haha. Soon my brain will just turn into pulp. Nyeh. Not a very good outcome. Anyways, Maths M1 module is done, and now trying to study up my Geo, GP, Malay, Math C2, Physics and History. Nyeh. Still alot to go till its done. How I wish there were no such things as exams. Haha.

Ok. Other than my school life. At home its getting more hectic. Mom n dad are constantly telling me to revise and stuff.. That isnt really surprising since it is THE exam week. Heh. Other than that its stil pretty much as hectic as before. Ocasion fights with my little brother or sister. Even with my elder sister. Wish I was still in primary school. Life was easier back then. No worries, no responsibilities. Nyeh. I MISS ULTIMATE YOUTH! >_<

Anyways. Thats all I got to say for now.

Cya people!

Real Revival??

Ello ppl..

Long tym no see. Haha. Im back and hopefully i'll blog more often. Ok. Last tym i blogged i was damn bored. Now im blogging because of 3 things. One, i feel confused and been thinking about sum stuff. Two, ive been tru alot recently and guess what! Im in sixth form now and in a new school. But it aint MD. Im now in JIS. Different environment and stuff. But same feel and same friendliness. 3rdly and lastly, my exams are near!!! VERY NEAR!!! HOLY SMOKES!! ITS ON MONDAY!! Damn times flies so damn fast.

Ok. Ive been away for so long, what has happened since i was away?? ALOT! New school, joined DA, been bored and been playing football alot. Hahaha. Other things are just tiny minor itsy bitsy details. Damn bored.

I wonder how people pass their malay exams. I mean i took it 3 times already! IM SO DAMN FRUSRATED WITH MALAY!! Y THE HELL DO WE NEED IT ANYWAYS!! I KNOW HOW TO SPEAK IN MALAY ALREADY ANYWAYS!!! AND I KNOW HOW TO WRITE IN IT!!! Well kinda. Nyeh. >_< Now i have my Malay exams mixed in all this alongside my AS level exams. Damn annoying. Nyeh.

Anyways. Gotta go now anyways.. hahaha.. Tata for now.. Hopefuly i'll have time to blogg n stuff. Hahaha. CYA!!!

Nickelback Lyrics.. Dunno y im puttin this in but im jst damn bored n too tired 2 think.. LOL!!!

Baby's born on a bathroom floor
Her mother prays that it'll never cry
But nothing's wrong you've got your prom dress on
When they ask you'll say "it isn't mine"
You know there gonna know you lied

Why the hell don't you throw yourself away?
You know there gonna burn it down

Wash my, hands of this
You notice how god ain't even helping you out
You notice how god ain't even helping you
Why the hell don't you throw yourself away?
You know there gonna burn it down

So keep the way you're feeling anonymous
And hide it all until the day you die
Your secrets safe, at least you thought it was
You can only keep it for a little while
And now you're terrified

Why the hell don't you throw yourself away?
You know there gonna burn it down

Wash my, hands of this
You notice how god ain't even helping you out
You notice how god ain't even helping you
Why the hell don't you throw yourself away?
You know there gonna burn it down

Baby's born on a bathroom floor
Her mother prays that it'll never cry
But nothing's wrong you've got your prom dress on
When they ask you'll say "it isn't mine"

Damn you for thinking we would never know
And damn you for thinking we would never mind
Only reason that you made it this far
You never asked him, but you never tried
Why the hell don't you throw yourself away?
Why the hell don't you throw yourself away?
You know there gonna burn it down

Wash my, hands of this
You notice how god ain't even helping you out
You notice how god ain't even helping you
Why the hell don't you throw yourself away?
You know there gonna burn it down